Confession: I rarely (if ever) do a New Year’s
Resolution. I guess my reason for not
doing them is because I never follow through.
This is due to most of my NYR not being realistic. I remember when I sixteen years old my goal
was to be able to do 50 fouettes with my left leg on pointe. What sixteen year old can actually accomplish
that? I am sure that somewhere some
sixteen year old can do that (they are probably in China), but as for me, I didn’t
do it. Another reason why I didn’t
always set a NYR is because I never really saw the need to do it. If I saw something in my life that needed to
be changed, I went ahead and did it. I
would set goals and accomplish it. I
guess I am just one of those people who set goals along the way as compared to
deciding to do a major one at the beginning of each year. Well this year I am changing my old habits
and setting a New Year’s Resolution that I believe I can achieve. It is this: grow a backbone. Yup.
You read that right. Grow a
backbone. Not literally of course (I
already have one), but just learn to stand up for what I believe and not try to
please everyone.
This idea for a NYR first started
form during the presidential debates.
FB, Twitter, YouTube, and every other social media sites were full of
articles and arguments every day. My values
align more with the republicans than democrats so I was hoping for a Romney
win. There were so many times when I
wanted to comment on something I read but was always afraid that I would offend
this random stranger who I was talking to on the internet and have them hate me
for the rest of my life and refer to me
as “that internet girl who didn’t like what I said” and tell stories of hatred
about me to their children and make a “I hate the internet girl” club and refer
to me when they talked to their grandchildren about who will steal them in the
night if they misbehave. Yeah. It was sometimes that bad. That is why I have always admired the people who
stand up for themselves. They state what
they stand for and they are not ashamed.
For too long I have been worried about what others will think and say
about me instead of taking a stand.
I want
to be braver. I want to do what I want
to do as compared to what others want me to do.
I want people to look to me as an example of how to stand up for
themselves as I have looked up to others.
I am
saying all of this because it scares me.
But isn’t that what NYR are about?
Getting out of your comfort zone and really trying to define who you
are? So from now on if I say something
that you don’t agree with, please don’t hate me. Instead be proud that I am choosing to grow a
backbone and becoming the person I want to be.
Thanks for all of the love and support that I have received throughout
the years! I have been so blessed. Here is to 2013 and many more years to
learning and growing!
