To begin this blog post, I wanted to give a disclaimer that this is a VERY LONG post. I wrote it over the course of a few weeks--mainly when I didn't want to study for finals. This is in honor of mine and Judd's first wedding anniversary. These are my memories of my wedding day. I hope that you enjoy them!
I woke up in the blue bedroom
with Chelsea and Becca in the bed with me.
I had woken up this way with them hundreds of times before. It was totally normal for us to sleep three
in a bed. Mom always compared us to
puppies that like to cuddle up when they sleep.
What wasn’t normal was that I woke up long before them. I remember telling myself that I couldn’t
think too hard about the day. I was very
excited and looking to the future with anticipation, but today was one of those
days that I simple had to wake up and go through the motions. I could think long and hard about it later.
I
jumped in the shower and started drying my hair once I was out. Brittany was doing my hair that day, but I
was supposed to at least get it dry. I
greeted my parents when I went upstairs and when Brittany came over we went
back downstairs to get me ready. She did
my hair, just how I wanted it, and began to apply my make-up. By this point, Chelsea and Becca were awake
and were helping Brittany along with getting themselves ready.
Although
I had woken up with plenty of time to get ready, I soon realized that I was
running a bit behind schedule and realized I had to hurry and get dressed. I decided to wear a white dress with flowers on
it that my mom had bought me years ago from the Wight House. I don’t know why I picked it. It made me look young and was reflecting how
I was feeling. I grabbed my two bags and
jumped in the car with my mom and dad.
No one else was driving with us.
They would arrive later.
Mom
was upset because we were running late.
I don’t know why should would expect anything else. We were always running late. The running joke in our family was to tell a
Knight girl that the event was happening 30 minutes before it actually started
if you wanted her to arrive on time. She
was speeding now. I could see the state
capitol building and as we turned the corner I saw Temple Square. We drove down past the Avenues and started
looking for a place to park. That was
when I saw Judd.
He
must have been running late too. He was
wearing his suit and carrying a bag. His
dad was with him. We made eye contact
and waved as he crossed the street. It
was raining and cold and I don’t blame them for running in their nice clothes.
Mom
decided to drop me and Dad off and she would find a place to park. We jumped out of the car on the corner of the
Conference Center and crossed the street just like Judd already had. It was colder than I had expected and the
overcast sky was mysterious and full of wonder—another reflection on my
mood. We crossed through the gates into
a building I had never been in.
I
saw Judd there. Waiting for me. It was crowded in the small lobby. A lot of people were there that day. He walked over with a smile and greeted me
with a hug. I couldn’t think about
it. He could tell I was nervous. I could tell he was too. His dad gave me a hug and told me how excited
he was. We were still running late so an
usher started to show us down the hall.
I couldn’t go yet. I had to wait
for my mom. I told my dad and him to go
ahead without me while I waited for mom.
They left.
That
was when it all started to hit me. I was
scared. I didn’t know where Mom was, I
was all alone, and I knew that this was the biggest day of my life. I couldn’t help but think about what I was
doing. I was thinking about all of the
events that had happened in my life to get me ready for this point. You know that saying that goes, “Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize
why it never worked out with anyone else.”
That is how I had always felt with Judd.
I had the opportunity to date a lot of great guys while I was still
single, but I had never realized how lonely I was until I met Judd. He made me feel complete and that I could
reach my full potential with him by my side.
I knew he felt the same way about me.
Eventually my mom came through the door. She smiled when she saw me and apologized for
being late. We walked back into the
dressing room and I changed for the sealing.
As I was getting dressed I remember feeling so nervous. I had been messing with my hair too much and
already the style was falling out. Mom
was so great at calming me down and making sure that everything was going to be
okay. She left to join the rest of the
bridal party and I was left waiting to meet up with Judd.
I was led to the celestial room and saw Judd for the
first time since that morning. I had to
admit that I suddenly didn’t feel so scared anymore. Judd was so sweet as we sat talking about how
excited we were and how we were both ready for this step in our relationship.
After our wedding party was seated, Judd and I were
led to the room which we would be sealed in.
Our sealer pulled us aside before we entered and asked us to pronounce
our names for him so that he would get it right. He asked me if my name was Com-y. I spelled it like this because the way he
said it was like com as in comic with a y on the end instead of Cam as in
Cameron (how my name is actually pronounced).
I corrected him and we entered sealing room 3-D.
It
was such a beautiful blessing seeing my whole family there to support me. The only thing that would have made that
moment more perfect would have been if Shelby was there. I can’t blame her at all though because
before she moved to Japan she specifically told me that if I got married before
she came back then she wouldn’t be able to make it. Plus she was pregnant at the time and
traveling by herself and two little kids would have been very difficult.
The
ceremony started and the sealer called me Com-y again! I had become so nervous again when he had
started that I didn’t know how to correct him!
Luckily, my mother-in-law and a few others corrected him so that Judd
didn’t have to marry Com-y Knight. Judd
also said “yes” before the sealer asked him if he wanted to marry me so he
jumped the gun a little. We were both so
nervous that neither one of us could think straight! Either way it was a beautiful ceremony and I
was so excited that it was official! We
had the opportunity to be sealed as a family for all time and eternity.
After
the sealing my mother and I went back to the dressing room to get into my
wedding gown. As we were walking there,
I had such a beautiful and spiritual experience that testified to me that our
Heavenly Father loves us and listens to our prayers. When Judd and I were deciding what temple to
get sealed in, I admitted that I wanted to get sealed in the Salt Lake City
Temple because that was where my parents were married. On our way to the dressing room, my mother
told me that Judd and I had been sealed in the same room that she and my dad
were sealed in—room 3-D. I started to
cry. Not only did my Heavenly Father
give me the opportunity to get sealed in the same temple as my parents, but he
gave me the blessing to be sealed in the exact same room. I testify that God listens to the desires our
hearts and that he blesses us accordingly.
I
got dressed and was getting ready to see Judd once more. We met up with him right before we left the
temple. This was one of the most fun
parts of the day. Mom walked up the
stairs to greet everyone and told us to wait 10 seconds and then follow
her. Judd and I probably only waited
about 5 seconds because we were so excited to see everyone. We walked outside and everyone clapped and
cheered for us. Once again, it was such
a beautiful moment to see all of our family and friends waiting for us and
giving us all of the love and support in the world.
The
funny thing is that once everyone clapped and cheered, no one really knew what
to do. My nephew Matt was the only one
who ran up to us and greeted us. I gave
him a hug and then someone yelled, “KISS!” so we did. More clapping and cheering. It was really fun. Judd and I approached the crowd and started
to say hello to everyone. I ran over and
hugged all of my friends that were waiting outside for me but couldn’t attend
the sealing. It struck me how incredibly
blessed I was to have such good influences in my life. These were friends that I wouldn’t have
traded for the world! They were my best
friends and had helped shape me to the person I was that day.
We
started to take the traditional group photos outside of the temple. It was a beautiful day but it was
freezing! The overcast sky was now
clearing up, but the temperature had dropped and everyone was shivering. We hurried them up though so we wouldn’t have
to suffer in the cold for too long. Here
is the thing about the group photos. I
have a “better side” that I like to have facing front when I take
pictures. I know that is so silly but
when we were taking pictures outside the wind didn’t allow me to face that
way! I tried at first but my veil kept
forming around me like a cage. I gave up
and agreed to face the other way.
A
few days earlier Brit took pictures of me and Judd in our wedding clothes so
that we wouldn’t have to spend so much time on our actual wedding day. However, I still wanted some pictures of us
on our actual day so we left to take those.
Every else had left to go to our luncheon at the Wight House. It was so pretty outside. There were pink tulips everywhere and flowers
of every color. The grass was spring
green and all of the colors of the day were so vibrant. We were worried that it might rain or snow on
our wedding day so a week earlier I had bought a white umbrella that had frills
around the edges. Did I mention already
how cold it was? I was shivering the
whole time. Seriously though, it was
three days until May but my nose was turning red from the cold.
After
a few more pictures we also left at go the luncheon. I left to go ride with my mom, but she told
me I couldn’t go with her. She said that
I needed to go with my husband.
Wow. That was new. So I left with Judd. I realized that this was the first time I had
been with Judd alone since we became husband and wife. As we drove we talked about our anxiety for
the day and how everything had turned out.
I couldn’t help but think about how blessed I was to have Judd in my
life. He was my best friend and it was
so easy to be with him.
When
we got to the luncheon we were greeted once again with all of our friends and
family. Kirt and Caroline were the ones
who had reserved and set everything up for the luncheon and it was
beautiful! While we were eating Kirt
asked some of our family and friends to say a few words. The truth is I don’t
really remember what anyone said. I
remember Becca crying and Lisa telling me that I was her best friend. Although I don’t remember what everyone said
I do remember feeling very loved and blessed.
I would argue that remembering how I felt is far more important than the
words that were being shared.
Lunch
ended and people were beginning to head over to the reception center at The
Grand Ballroom on Main. Judd had left to
go to the bathroom and I kind of sat there watching everyone leave and let the
moments of the day sink in. On your
wedding day you imagine a fairy tale and feeling like you’re on cloud nine the
whole time. But it is much more real
than that. At times you feel scared, at
other times you feel anxious, sometimes you feel like you are going to throw
up, but then you feel more loved than you have ever felt in your entire
life. You feel grateful and very
blessed. You understand why Heavenly
Father values marriage and families. You
find sacred moments throughout the day that confirm that Jesus Christ is your
Savior and that he loves you with all his heart. I am so glad that I felt “real” moments on my
wedding day. Aside from being sealed to
my best friend, I had the opportunity to have my testimony grow.
When
Judd got back we drove one block (literally) to the reception center. My hair was once again a mess so Brit had my
bridesmaids fix my hair while she took some pictures of us in the “bride’s
room.” It was actually pretty fun. In an attempt to get some “candid” shots, I
kept telling people to do some fake laughs while Brit took the photos. This usually ended up with us really laughing
so that helped. We ended up outside to
take some more shots. We decided to go
across the street to the tabernacle in Bountiful to take some shots. Eventually we got Judd’s groomsmen over and
took some more shots with everyone. The
best ones were when the girls pretending to kiss Judd and the groomsmen acting
like girls while the bridesmaids acted like boys. Did I mention that Brittany ended up splitting
her skirt while taking pictures of the groomsmen? Talk about dedication for the shot! Luckily she had a spare in the car. Still, good for her for being a good sport
and a great photographer!
The
reception started and all I can remember are a lot of people. People everywhere. How blessed I was to have so many people come
up to support Judd and me! Also I am so
lucky to have such a beautiful, loving mom who made my reception stunning. The room already was beautiful, but my mom
has a gift to take something beautiful and turn it into something amazing. I believe that we need more people like her
in the world. She spent months
visualizing the whole place and getting flower arrangements put into place,
along with lights hanging from the ceiling, and hanging lanterns, and ribbon,
and a place to set gifts. She was so
wonderful throughout the whole process.
And the flower arrangements she had were lovely. Yellow roses are my favorite. They actually inspired my wedding colors, my
bouquet, and my wedding cake. Mom knew
this and made sure that there were yellow roses everywhere! I felt like I was walking in an Italian
garden completely dedicated to yellow roses and flowers. And did I mention that she made some of the
best food a reception can have? Our
guests had a full meal given to them buffet style! A few of my favorites were the parmesan
crisps, chocolate covered strawberries, crackers and spread, and frozen gelato
on spoons.
And
let’s not forget the drinks. Dad bought
hundreds of old soda can bottles, cleaned them all out, filled them up with
homemade lemonade, and then put authentic bottle caps on all of them. Also he bought bottle can openers to go along
with them and personally stamped “Camie and Judd” onto them. He was wonderful and they bottles were a
hit! If you ask me, I think that he was
a trend setter for future weddings.
The
line never seemed to end, but I loved everyone I met who came through. There were even some of Judd’s guests who by
the end of talking to us told Judd that if he ever hurt me they would come
after him. I guess that on your wedding
day, you are filled with so much love and gratitude that everyone you meet is a
new lifelong friend. Even the fact that
they made the effort to attend your reception and support you is so
flattering. Looking back a year later I
still cannot believe how blessed I am to have the support of so many good
people who are on this earth.
When
it was time to cut the cake, I still wasn’t sure if I would shove my piece into
Judd’s face or not. When you are little
and thinking about your wedding you go back and forth on whether you will
behave or not when it comes to cake cutting.
We began cutting it (which is way more intimidating than you think with
everyone watching you) and I knew exactly how I was going to behave. I guess my immature self came through and I
tried to shove it into Judd’s face.
However, Judd had been expecting it.
That is the thing with Judd. He
is also so quick on his feet and is always semi-suspicious of me messing with
him. He blocked most of the cake and
then countered it when I wasn’t prepared.
We both ended up with minimal damage on our face that was easily cleaned
up.
Next
was the bouquet/garter toss. I had
already “promised” many of my friends that I would toss the bouquet to
them. However, my toss ended up being a
joke. I climbed up on a chair with
Judd’s help but threw my bouquet into a strand of lights so it stopped short of
getting to the girls. One my of
bridesmaids, Ali Brand, caught it and although she is on her mission in
Washington right now, no one else from that group has tied the know yet so she
still may be the next one. Next was the
garter toss. I had no idea what Judd was
planning to do but to say the least I was very embarrassed. I sat down in the chair and Judd kneeled
down. Already it was awkward. But to make it worse he then put his head up
my dress and grabbed the garter with his teeth!
I was dying! My face was bright
red and hidden in my hands. I was going
to murder him on the spot! However, he
poked his head back up and it was just as red as mine. We both ended up laughing and everyone
(mainly Judd’s friends) was cheering.
His garter toss was as successful as mine had been since his had also
hit the lights, but he claimed a redo.
Alex Bertin had originally caught it, but Tony Dibb did the second
time.
Next
was our first dance as a couple. Our
song was Come Away with Me by Norah Jones.
I struggled picking a song for us.
Growing up, I had always wanted The Way You Look Tonight by Frank
Sinatra, but Norah Jones kept coming back to me over and over again. I decided to pick Come Away with Me since it
was constantly the song I thought about.
However, I honestly don’t know if I would do that again if I went
back. I love both of those songs equally
so I just like to say that they were both my wedding song. Besides, Judd and I have danced plenty of
times in our kitchen while I sang The Way You Look Tonight to make it our song
as well.
I
love dancing with Judd. I did feel a
little self-conscious having everyone watching us as we danced, but I kept
telling myself to enjoy the moment. And
I did. Judd is my best friend. I couldn’t imagine not being with him. He has brought so much light and love into my
life. I have learned so much from
him. He is the greatest blessing in my
life. This is another reason why I am so
grateful for temple marriages.
Next
was the father/daughter and mother/son dance.
We danced to Unforgettable by Nat King Cole and his daughter
Natalie. In case you haven’t picked up
on it yet, I love Jazz music. I always
have. It has had the ability to take me
away to another reality and get lost in the music. In fact, our whole wedding playlist was my
jazz playlist that I had on my iPod. It
was pretty easy choosing our playlist. As
much as I love dancing with Judd, I also love dancing with my father. Unlike most men these days, my dad knows how
to dance. He took my hand and led me
across the floor. He twirled me in and
out and we danced gracefully across the floor.
After the song, he gave me a kiss and told me how proud he was of
me. He then turned and shook Judd’s hand
while Caroline gave me and hug and a kiss.
That
was all that we had planned for the reception.
It was 8pm and time to leave. I
didn’t want to. Looking back, I could’ve
stayed longer, but it worked out just fine anyway. Everyone left to get sparklers and floating
lanterns like in Tangled. I went to the
bride’s room to grab my temple bag which had my phone and keys in it. I remember that I felt really frantic while
leaving. Judd was ready to go but I
wanted to go around and say goodbye to everyone. I felt like I was doing a good job with that
but I couldn’t find my mom anywhere.
However, everyone was lined up and was waiting us with their burning
sparklers to run through. So I decided
to leave without saying goodbye to her.
However, as I was running out I heard someone shout my name and turned
around to see my mom. I ran back and
grabbed her hand and said goodbye as I was running out with Judd. It was such a tender moment to have the
second with my mom. She also told me
that she loved me and was proud of me. I
did cry then, but I was excited too.
Everyone was clapping and cheering for us. Judd’s car had been decorated and Grandma
McEwan was taking lots of pictures. We
got in and I couldn’t help but feel like a princess as we drove off. I rolled down the window and waved at
everyone. You know at the end of Cinderella
how she is waving and everyone is cheering?
That was my wedding reception when we left. And honestly, that basically sums it up. My wedding day was great and I couldn’t have
been imagined it being any better. Thank
you for all of the people who played a role in it and made it such a wonderful
day for Judd and me. We love you
all!
